Plotting the course forward…
Yesterday afternoon concluded with what might have been and extremely unpleasant event. The director at the company I worked as a contractor called me in to a conference room with two other members of management. I immediately knew what was taking place.
Note from Kip…
My eyes scanned all three of them looking for information to prepare me for what was about to take place. I could see clearly that they were searching for just what was the best way to handle the task before them.
The other two had a wave of relief as the director opened up the conversation and eased into the topic.
“Ken, there simply isn’t an easy way of saying this. We have notified your contracting company that we are terminating your contract effective immediately.
You just are not a good fit for the position we put you in and it doesn’t help anyone for us to continue.”
I swallowed but nothing was there to swallow and realized that my mouth was parched completely void of moisture. With a tongue that felt more like sandpaper than part of my body I responded.
I told them that I had really expected this coming for a while. It wasn’t that I felt I was doing a substandard effort, I was doing all I could, however I felt that the director was absolutely correct that I had been tasked with something that was not just difficult for me to achieve, it actually was counter to my make up and not a good fit for my skills and abilities. This just wasn’t working.
I went on to say that I had been hoping to find an alternate role in the organization that would leverage my abilities better and thought that I had identified exactly that but had not been successful in making that case as of yet.
The director responded that they agreed that if they had the head count to undertake that area which they truly needed badly, I would be the perfect candidate for that role. But they didn’t have the head count and likely would not for some time. The other two enthusiastically responded.
I gathered my things and was out the door devoid of my access badge and my projected plans for my involvement with the firm.
I called the recruiter at the head hunter firm that had placed me there as a contractor and left a message that I had been given notice and asked him to call me when he got the chance so we could talk about what the next steps were.
It was not more than three minutes he called back as I was pulling out of the parking lot.
He informed me that they had given him notice earlier that afternoon and along with dismissing my contract they also gave a glowing recommendation to the firm regarding me and my talents.
We agreed to meet Monday morning ended the conversation.
That was the end of my workday, Friday.
Plotting the course forward
I will remember the Lord’s works; yes, I will remember Your ancient wonders. I will reflect on all You have done and meditate on Your actions.
God, Your way is holy.
What god is great like God?
You are the God who works wonders; You revealed Your strength among the peoples. With power You redeemed Your people, the descendants of Jacob and Joseph.
Psalms 77:11-15 (HCSB)
God, Your way is holy!
A little more than five months earlier I had been looking for work and had been directed by my recruiting firm to interview with this company. At that time, I felt strongly that God was possibly directing my steps into areas that were foreign to my experience.
I thought at the time that this was God’s way of telling me that He was opening up a job that would allow me to serve Him as part of my labor. Instead, He put me in something that was foreign in the way that things were done, which was exceedingly challenging at times and my results were below my expectations. At the same time, He demonstrated to me that there were talents that He had imbued in me.
So, it became clear that God was teaching me that I could do something different and the nature of what that could be as well as what that most assuredly was not.
This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses, for he faced all of the same testings we do, yet he did not sin. So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.
Hebrews 4:15-16 (NLT)
Upon hanging up the phone from my recruiter, I had calmly and with confidence approached the throne of God, and confided in Him that I was ready and willing to do whatever it was He wanted me to, go where ever it was He wanted me to go, and be whatever He called me to be.
I, His Disciple, was not shaken, but ready to do whatever it was He wanted me doing. Instead of having the fog of doubt bearing down on me and leaving me in a state of confusion, I was comforted in the peace that He knew what He wanted for me, despite me not having a clue just yet.
What I was reminded of then and am dwelling on right now is this:
but those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not faint.
Isaiah 40:31 (HCSB)
I communicated the news to those who would want to know what was going on. In fact, some who would have been a bit perturbed with me if I didn’t make them aware of my prayer need in this moment.
This morning one of my pastors responded to an email I had sent him letting me know that he was praying that God bless me with a ‘better job’.
My reaction was gratitude for the support but I wrote back to him the following note, and after I wrote it, I realized that this was what was resounding in my heart.
Only pray that He puts me where He wants me. That includes me being submissive to His will and direction at this time.
I’ve already got things coming at me that might appear as quick solutions and fast fixes. I do want to have an answer ‘right now’ but that is the flesh screaming for attention. My spirit says let His perfect work be completed in you.
I want what He wants of me and for me.
God’s Got This!
I’ve gotten to where I make a habit of using this phrase. but it is so very true.
It really doesn’t matter what our plans and schemes are, He’s got this. He will continue to have this unless we struggle with Him to pull it back.
If we’ve given our lives to Him, our lives are His to direct and we need to abide in that direction with trust. Trust in His grace, providence and provision.
What man among you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!
Matthew 7:9-11 (HCSB)
Our Father in heaven has got this. I rest in the fact that He is “plotting the course forward“.